I had an interesting conversation with God last Monday. It went something like this:
I was pouring my first cup of coffee, thinking of all that
needed to be accomplished and asking God to direct my path when I heard Him
speak. I had just told Him how I would
do anything He wanted, if He simply told me what to do…and then He said, “Pour
out your coffee.”
Instantly I laughed.
Like God would tell me to pour out my coffee.
I mean seriously, I LOVE COFFEE, I NEED COFFEE. God would not
want me to suffer by doing something so silly.
As I was laughing I heard Him tell me again, “Pour out your
coffee.”
Now I wasn’t laughing…I was moving on to rationalizing.
“Okay God, if you REALLY want me to pour out my coffee…” I
waited, ready to hear Him tell me I could drink my warm beverage.
All I heard was silence.
“Okay God, seriously, if you want me to, I will. But it seems ridiculous. How will pouring out my coffee serve You?”
“It will prove you obey.”
Ouch!
“Obey. Yes, I will obey.
But do I have to pour out my
coffee? I just made it. Can’t I just tell You I’m willing, do I actually have to do it?”
Silence.
“Abraham in the Bible didn’t have to sacrifice his son; do I
have to pour out my coffee? I really am
willing to serve You, promise.” (yes I really went there in my conversation
with God)
“Pour out your coffee.”
God spoke, would I listen?
I’d like to tell you I instantly poured out my coffee.
Instead, I spent time
in prayer.
Yes I prayed over my coffee, but more importantly, I asked
God to help me be willing to listen to EVERYTHING He commanded and not just the
stuff I liked.
I found myself asking these questions:
Why was I willing to
do something BIG for God, but not willing to follow the simple command to pour
out my coffee?
Why would God trust me
with something BIG, if I wouldn’t listen to the small stuff?
The answers- I don’t know and He won’t.
This led me to this simple, yet profound truth: If I want God’s blessings and I want Him to
use me for His Kingdom, I have to be willing to listen to EVERYTHING and not
just the things that make sense, (because pouring out a perfectly good cup of
coffee did not make sense).
But God’s ways are higher and His knowledge greater- I must
be willing to FOLLOW and OBEY!
My brain quickly jumped from my willingness to follow, to my
sister who is training a new dog- it’s not going well. The dog isn’t willing to follow simple
commands. My sister is ready to teach
the basics so she can move on to more complex commands, but her dog isn’t
complying.
I wonder, if like my sister, God isn’t waiting for me to
follow the simple stuff so He can give me more complex tasks.
“Okay God,” Deep breath, “I’m willing to pour out my coffee.
I don’t understand and I don’t really like it, but I’m willing.”
Silence. Not sure if
I was waiting for applause from heaven, but I wanted some recognition that God
had heard…after all, this was a big sacrifice!
“I’m really willing God, lead me.”
I started moving towards the sink, ready to pour out my
steaming cup of joy when I head,“You don’t have to pour it out.”
Now I was confused. Was Satan trying to trick me?
“God, I really want to follow You. Please lead me, give me peace, I don’t want
to be a fool.”
I didn’t hear anything else, but peace filled my heart.
I drank my coffee, full of happiness and contentment, down
to the last drop!
As I drank, I realized it wasn’t that God wanted me to pour
out my coffee, it’s that He wanted me willing to pour out what I desired.
He wanted me to place Him above even the smallest things.
I was ashamed, because at first I was only giving lip
service to Him, I was trying to convince both Him and myself that I was willing
to pour out my coffee. But I wasn’t
fooling God, He knew my heart and until my heart matched my lips, I had to pour
out my coffee.
So glad my toaster didn’t have to go up in flames for God to
get my attention (referencing Moses and the Burning bush).
Question: What are you holding onto that God is asking
you to let go of?